Criminal defense counsel also find themselves angered by crimes, you can be sure, and by the illnesses in society that foster them. "A lot of people are saying he did the right thing"is why femicide happens in human society with endless, remorseless destructiveness. Public defense counsel take what they get, while private defense counsel decide how to earn their livings. That doesn't guarantee by any means that everyone is innocent, or even that the work always ends up making society better. Nor for prosecutors, as you can see. So the definition of the "why" in the practice has to lie elsewhere.

I think this is a much improved draft, both in making the personal writing more effective through brevity, and for using the recovered space to define the issues for yourself. Now you return in the fall knowing what you need to learn and what challenges you have in planning your practice.